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Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Boot Camp!!!! Da Ta Da TAH!

We had a very intense weekend. Master had told me earlier in December that we would be doing Domestic Discipline Boot Camp sometime that month. I had vacation time from work that I needed to use and my office Christmas party was on Friday, he lined it up to start on Saturday, December 16. I knew it was coming and sort of what to expect, but I didn't read up on a lot of it because I didn't want to get anxious about it or have someone else's experience to influence or taint my expectations, so I went into it kind of  clueless. Glad I did! While overall it is an exercise that I would wholeheartedly recommend to DD couples; I would not advise it for someone who is really just starting out unless it is understood beyond a shadow of a doubt by both parties what will be happening; if I had known, I don't know if I could have done it.
 I am very glad we did it; it opened up some emotional areas where we were both shut down.

I learned from this experience that I am very committed to what we are doing; we have been through enough failed relationships and this is working because we are committed to it and have found that even though we sort of stumbled into it, apparently we needed it.

This experience was good for both of us.  We learned we have to listen to each other and ourselves and should be precise in our speech. Everything I needed to do every step I needed to go through; I had to ask permission to do. It made me stop and think about everything, every step I take for granted doing mundane things.  I learned that when I am out of order, my disobedience pulls both of us off track because Master has to stop and determine what punishment is to be delivered.

I also learned I am a lot stronger than I thought I was; I decided I would wholeheartedly go through the entire exercise and not wimp out; which I am proud to say I was able to get through all of it.

I feel a lot closer to Master and if possible, I love him more than I did before and want to please him in every way. In spite of or because of this exercise, I know I am loved and cherished. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt, I belong to Master and he belongs to me.

This experience also has me examining other couples relationships. While I will never know the intimate details of other couples relationships, I am looking at couples I know and couples I see in a different light.

What an absolutely fabulous way to advance our relationship into 2012!!!

Monday, January 9, 2012

I'm Changed

Still wrapping my brain around my Boot Camp experience....learned so much about myself in this relationship and new things about us together.....I'm still weighing and reviewing us....not in a bad way; marveling that we found this without a name for it as an answer to a prayer.....don't tell me my God isn't good and doesn't know His children and what they need....if only they would listen to what He's telling them!